Pan's Garden

Dreamt of my dad last night, this morning really. Just realized a little while ago that this is the anniversary of his death. It's been ...

Well, it feels like the week-long angerfest/pity party is winding down. At least for the time being. Feeling a little more even-keeled and.....

What's worse than a shart? A shart in public just as you're sitting down to eat. In your last pair of clean underwear. After going t...

I just got a bunch of shit off my chest in a post that I can't bring myself to publish. It hardly matters that only one person reads thi...

Woke from a nap late afternoon feeling lonely and depressed. I spent the morning on a caravan of pain. I woke early to have breakfast with S...

No, not this . I put the ball in motion tonight. I told Jacquelene that I'm leaving the house. We're going to discuss details tomo...

It's finally happened. For nearly 40 years, despite being sodomized as a four-year-old, despite being molested by my mother, despite 3...

Can anything be more disappointing, infuriating, and maddening than being a human being? We come into this existence thinking everything r...

Back from an hour and a half walk. It was drizzling and a bit cold, but not too bad. I love walking the streets at night. It's so still....

I was thinking recently that breaking up gets easier as you age. You've been through it all before. You've felt the worst you can ...

God, the chord changes and melody are just gorgeous. And the refrain…

As I suggested in the previous post, I'm considering finding a new place to live. Like FB, it just feels empty without Debbie there. Eve...

I just deactivated my Facebook account. This will be the first time since signing up in late 2007 that I won't be at least tangentially ...

In honor of my father, Jim, who died four years ago today. I miss you, dad.  

So, I'm sitting here in my living room enjoying some chill electronica and a raging fire, while getting ready to work on some AnnieMac p...